Sorry for posting this late, I came home and had a nap, made some dinner, and then decided to go to bed for real, haha.

I think my cortisol levels are getting too high.  That’s my fancy way of saying I am getting stressed.  Not acute stress, it is building up systematically.  Lots of weight sessions in the morning, not enough sleep, too much caffeine, it all builds up.  My patience is just not there these days, some times it is hard to even finish a set because I want to move on.  So in addition to the physiological effects of longterm overstress, and longterm overproduction of cortisol, I am currently at the level where it is just screwing up my workouts.

I don’t want to overdramatize it, I still go in and get lots of work done, but my focus isn’t there, and I am not reaping the rewards of the endorphins, the “good vibes” that come after a workout.  So it isn’t optimal.

I can’t post too much on my workout yesterday morning, since I forgot my notes at work!  I will come back in and edit the numbers once I can make it back in to work (it is a long weekend).  Oops!  Here are my basic recollections:

Thursday morning I showed up and did some back and biceps work.

back & biceps (30 sec rest b/w all sets)

widegrip pulldowns:  180 x 15, 15, 10, 7

bent over barbell rows:  145 x 12, 12, 12

one hand db row:  60 x 12/12, 12/12, 12/12 (no rest, back and forth arm to arm)

machine hyperextensions:  255 x 12, 12, 12, 12

seated dumbbell curls:  40 x 10/10, 10/10, 8/8, 7/7

preacher curls:  55 x 15, 10, 9

notes:  biceps weren’t really with it this workout.  once my focus goes, then my form gets bad fast, and I get frustrated and stop.  so I could have done more, I just don’t want to count bad form reps.  This workout also could have used a good finisher, but I had to rush off to spin!

Spin was bleh.  Nothing against Courtney, I was just really irritated.  I found a bike by myself at the back of the room, and grimly set out to spin.  The problem with spinning in a bad mood is that the teacher’s voice gets to you quick.  Again, I really enjoy Courtney as a teacher, but I wasn’t in the right mindframe – she is telling the class to go faster and push harder and I mutter to myself, “oh, shut up”.  Halfway through the class I had a VERY strong inclination to just stop and get off and walk away, but I thought that would be very rude and awkward, so I decided to stick it out.  Turns out that might have been the better option…

At the end of the ride, while people were stretching, I had to get out of there NAO!  Unfortunately, this young woman and middle-aged man had decided now was the right time to gather around the paper towel dispenser and catch up on each other’s lives.  So as I crane my arm between them to reach a loose roll of paper towel to clean my bike with, the towel pops OUT of my hand, hits the ground and starts rolling, unspooling all of its brown paper as it rolls under almost every single bike in the back row.

I try to tug on the paper and pull the roll back towards me, but at this point, that just makes it unspool further.  so now I walk over to the other side of class while people are stretching, cursing audibly at this point, not even under my breath any more, just swearing and cursing.  Some guy looks at me and goes, “hey, a paper trail!”  Nice Dad joke, buddy.  I gather up all the loose paper into a ball, slam it down on top of the paper towel dispenser and walk away pissed.

Great spin class!  haha.  that was when I realized that hey maybe my chemistry is out of whack.  Too much cortisol, fight or flight response in my system.  Too much stress.

I have resolved to get more sleep (like I did last night!), cut down on the caffeine (and the pre-workouts), and try to calm down more.  If that doesn’t work, I might need a few days off from the gym.

All of that is a good plan, but it can’t start today, because Leslie really wants me to come in and do a giant leg workout at 9 am!  I better drink some preworkout and head out!  This plan cant fail!

See you soon!